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Saturday, November 26, 2011

Constant

Sometimes it hits me how constant parenting really is. Even when I'm by myself, on those rare occasions, I'm never not a parent.

That can be exhausting and overwhelming.

Is it wrong to want a break? I want to sleep straight through the night and wake up when I wake up. I want to not have to work around nap times and meal times. I want to have a long shower, get a hair cut and maybe a pedicure, go for a run, go have a few drinks, eat a nice meal.

Be myself for a day. Be by myself for a day.

I know this won't last forever. I'm lucky that J is a great partner and I have family and friends that help out often.

Please don't think I'm complaining, it's just that sometimes I want to not be a parent. I want to be free of my responsibilities. I think everyone does, if they think about it.

I don't think about it often. I go through my days doing the same things over and over. I will always be me and I will always be a mom.

That is constant. This is my life.

1 comment:

  1. Oh my gosh. I was just thinking the same thing this past week. I told my husband about it and even noted that it was a horrible thing to feel. He understood and doesn't think I am an awful person. Being a mom can be exhausting and overwhelming and sometimes I just want a day off. Which isn't going to happen. Good luck!

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