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Friday, June 17, 2011

When your heart breaks just a little

Little J is normally a bubbly little kid, always on the move, always chatting away. He's very go-go-go and quite loud. Sometimes though he does things that make my heart break just a little.

The week I was really sick we had a particularly bad night and I begged J to stay home the next morning. SJ came over to help out and took Little J and dropped J off at work. By the time they got home, I had dragged myself out of bed and met them in the garage. Little J had the car keys and hit the panic button. The car alarm was deafening in the closed garage.

To stop the noise, I grabbed the keys from Little J and hit buttons until it stopped. The silence after the alarm stopped was beautiful. But then Little J burst into tears. I guess the alarm scared him. I scooped him up and calmed him down. I felt bad that he was upset but a little smile hit my lips because it reminded me that he's just a little boy. A boy who gets scared.

Another time, Little J was outside with J when our neighbour came home. He recently bought a Harley and was driving it that day. Little J marvels over the shiny bike, but it's pretty loud and J told me that he looked at Little J and saw that he was scared of the noise and he was crying. My heart broke. Poor little man.

I can just see him standing there with his red hat and his Elmo shirt, tucked in beside his dad's leg, tears streaming down his face because of the big bad motorcycle.

He's so full of life but this makes him seem so small. I want to scoop him up and protect him from the things that scare him but at the same time I don't want him to be afraid. I have to remind myself that he won't be small forever.

There's more, but I'll tell you later.

1 comment:

  1. I hear ya! Even Ethan still has moments where something scares him a bit and that bottom lip starts to quiver. And of course the girls too. So tender!