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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

A little break

I needed a little break from blogging. I had a million things weighing on my mind and it all came to a head Saturday. My emotions boiled over and I cried.

I hate crying. I hate how I look and how I can't talk when I cry. I don't want people to see me and I definitely don't want to talk about it. J knows all this and he knows me. He MADE me talk to him and I'm glad he did. I feel a million times better.

It's so nice to have someone like him who takes charge when all I want to do is crawl into bed and ignore everything for a while. Instead I talked it out and have decided to make some changes. Just making the decision to make changes made me feel better. I feel energized.

Something that was bothering me, and it may sound small to you, is how dirty and messy our house is. Normally I can handle some dirt and I can handle some mess, but it's gotten kind of ridiculous. It takes me a week to even get the vacuum out and another week to vacuum one floor of our house and about a month to do all three floors. Let's just say I wish we had darker carpets. Today I took charge! I cleaned the kitchen sink and my bathroom. You thought I might have vacuumed? Well, there wasn't any time for vacuuming. Soon!

Getting out of the house and getting exercise (Salsa Babies is officially exercise in my world) is also good, especially when it's grey and rainy outside. Salsa Babies was yesterday and I had a lunch date today. Lunch isn't exercise but it's getting out of the house. I met J's coworkers. It was the first time Baby J cried in a restaurant. No one seemed to mind.

So yes, I'm back and feeling better.


  1. Glad that you're feeling better! I remember feeling overwhelmed with Ethan but with Karington it was so much easier. I guess I remembered the first time as being so difficult that I was prepared. Amazing how nice it feels to accomplish tasks like cleaning sometimes!

  2. "Something that was bothering me, and it may sound small to you, is how dirty and messy our house is."

    I hear ya! How come this doesn't seem to bother most men? ;)